After having been absent from my Blog for too long, I’m happy to be back to writing once again! Past readers might recall I’d begun a full time job in the Fall of 2013. Now I’ve manifested another job allowing for a more balanced life, which includes time to re-establish my healing practice. My original decision to take a full time job satisfied my financial needs yet it also resulted in a lot of ‘personal growth’ i.e. Pain. Thus, this is the topic for today’s Blog. Yes, personal growth can be a pain! Hopefully my story will serve as support and encouragement for any reader who is going through their own.
Speaking for myself, experiencing pain has often been necessary in order to reach a higher level of personal development. According to my Vedic Astrology chart, the planets in my 8th house of transformation point to this. More importantly, when I use the term ‘pain’, I’m using it to describe the Energy of physical, mental and emotionally painful experiences, for this energy is Transformative.
Having stability in life doesn’t make for changes. The term, Static Energy could serve as a metaphor for when life is in a ‘status quo’ modality. There’s certainly a place for stability in life, as its role is to help keep our life balanced as we evolve during our lifetime. Yet it’s the energy of being in crisis that moves us toward making shifts in our consciousness. This energy creates the change or transformation necessary for progressing along our life’s path.
With that said, as a result of my decision, I’d found myself in a tough situation. In response to this scenario, I had to gather the courage to get myself out of it and find another way to achieve my goal. Of course, this didn’t happen overnight, so I had to suffer until I was finally able to meet it. On the surface, this would be considered a very unpleasant experience, yet on another level, I can appreciate that it was just what I needed, as I learned a lot in this process. It was a great challenge on a physical and emotional level, but it felt very rewarding once my situation was resolved.
It's ironic how when you’re going through life’s trials you’re pushed beyond your limits, yet in the process of overcoming them at the same time. It seems what we’re doing is making our way through our custom-made “mental obstacle course” of self-imposed limitations. It’s no surprise that afterward we’re amazed at what we’ve managed to overcome. Giving yourself credit for whatever you DID accomplish is an important step at this juncture. For it’s HOW one responds to this discovery that determines their ability to rise above the behavioral and belief patterns contributing to their experience.
Yes, the process of transformation isn’t over the instant one gets to the other side of an unpleasant experience. Some time is needed for one to take stock of their experience as it progressed from being “unpleasant” or “scary” until the final outcome. Whether or not the outcome is considered to be a “positive” or a “negative” development is obviously determined by one’s attitude toward life.
To be honest, this can be a challenge for me, as well as anyone, as it's tricky not to get stuck in the emotions around blame and disappointment always related to our unpleasant experiences. I describe this phenomenon as having an attachment to our emotional pain, which isn’t the same as 'pain energy for change' and only serves to create the 'static energy' of being stuck in emotions. Whenever I've gotten stuck in blame, it’s only prevented me from just accepting whatever happened and let it BE, no matter how ‘wrong’ I considered a situation to be SO AS TO MOVE ON FROM IT.
Now I’m finally able to see how much more important it is to trust in MYSELF, my ability and effort to do my very best in life. I can only be responsible for my personal actions, for there is no controlling the attitudes or actions of others. Of course, there’s more to this story. I can tell you that a lot of internal soul searching and healing work got me to this place, so I’ll stop here for now. In my next Blog entry I'll share how I went about seeking help to get through this situation and the healing resources I utilized to help me transform my life back into one that supports my life path as a healer.
In the meantime, please join me in celebrating the “lazy days” of summer and FREEDOM!
With light, Mina